Been off the antidepressants for a several days now. Luckily, I don’t have the intense rage that I was dealing with before (though I suppose it could still return), but I’m filled with a continuing sense of discontent. I’m restless and frustrated and there is very little that I’m actually interested in doing. Though my wife definitely appreciated the restlessness last night when I did the dishes, cleaned all the bottles, emptied the cat box and took out the trash. So, at least there’s an upside there.
We also made yesterday an outing day. Went out to Powell’s Candy Shoppe, which is always a dangerous proposition. It’s hard to go in there without spending a lot of money… I don’t have the biggest sweet tooth, but when I see something that looks as good as that, it’s hard to resist. We also checked out a specialty soda store. We bought 8 different types of soda to try out. We’ve tried 1 so far and wasn’t terribly impressed. Hopefully the rest will turn out better. Then we hit the mall, where we had a lot of fun. My son got his first real look at an escalator, which he found extremely fascinating. So I stood with him and let him ride it up and back down. The awe on his face was beautiful. Of course, then he ran back to ride again… He also discovered the concept of going under things when we went to get me some new jeans (my ‘good’ jeans now have holes in the knees) and I went in to the changing room. In and out and in and out under the door he went. Gave the wife a good laugh. Finally, we also went to our malls play land with him for the first time. This gave him more opportunity to go under things, which he took great joy in doing. Then, after I put him on the slide and took him down that a few times, he figured out how to climb up the stairs to it and then climbed down the slide. I was very impressed, though hardly surprised that he’s climbing so well. He is a little monkey like his daddy.
Still haven’t figured out how to approach our lady friend. Really don’t want to make things awkward and screw up the friendship. As much as I’d like to have her as more, the friendship is much more important.